Tuesday, April 21, 2009

The Real Deal - About Me

Although I love posting about all the great Giveaways I find out here in blogland and will continue to do so on a regular basis ( I mean, come on, who doesn't love free stuff?) That is not why I started blogging. I've been thinking about how I have not done a "real" post in a while and I can tell you, it is not because I have run out of things to say.

I actually started this blog a little over a year ago for the simple reason that I needed a place where I could vent, ramble, muse and sometimes even rant and rave. If any of you have followed me since the beginning, you know about Mr. P's skiing accident. It was a very bad accident and a VERY LONG year for us. I was feeling a little depressed, a little pent up and a lot confused and scared about our world and our future. I was looking for a safe haven to tell Mr. P's story with a few little anecdotes about our life in Suburbia along the way. Hence, the name "Getting Here From There".

I started out with a vengeance and had something to muse about almost every day. And then I started to feel guilty. You see, much of my posting is about my family and the silly, little things they do that drive me crazy. We all know that it is the foibles of those around us and the trials and tribulations we endure every day that make for a good story. I try to rant and rave and muse about our adventure called life honestly and with a sense of humor (although, my humor may be admittedly dark for some) and along the way, I have apparently offended or insulted some of my family members. My posts were not barbs at them or digs at who they are. Just observations on how we are all different and do things in different ways.

I recently realized that at some point, I started to sensor myself. I would find myself changing wording, editing sentences and deleting entire posts before they were even saved as a draft, never mind published. I would read and reread that day's post, wondering if Dear Mother would take offense or if other beloved family members would find my post to be a little bit mean or derogatory. So, over the past month or so, there have been no posts. My sensoring system has run amok.

No worries Dear Friends, I am not in a full blown chronic depression or anything and I truly live a blessed, wonderful, happy life. I have an amazing husband and 2 healthy and happy children and we are doing great - I would even venture to say that we are doing better than most.
BUT . . . families are not perfect. Life is not perfect. And the most absolute of all, WEATHER is not perfect. These things combined with the day to day goings-on and what I like to refer to as the Drudgery of Suburban Life sometimes make me cranky. They sometimes make me want to scream. And lately, I have been very cranky and screaming. I have had a lot to write about, but with my newly found Overdriven Sensoring Program, I have not written at all.

So, I have decided to shut down my sensoring system and write, vent, muse and rant and rave. Back to business as usual. As I said earlier, this blog was started as an outlet for myself and my thoughts. I didn't even know what followers were. It was a place for me to be me without any airs, falsities or concerns about being judged. And somewhere along the way, I feel like I lost that freedom and I allowed it to happen.

As I look back at what I have written today, I see that my "simple" explanation of why I have not done a "real" post has turned into a post in and of itself. So, I will leave my original post for later.

But, I leave you with this . . . for those of you who take offense at little things or judge easily, then maybe this is not the blog for you. I try to post my opinions, feelings and views on life and family honestly and with a sense of humor and I will not sensor that - it is what I think, feel and am. I started this blog for me. I will continue to write for me. If you read and enjoy my musings and anecdotes - Welcome to my ride called Life. If not? Check back in a couple of days - there may be more Giveaways . . .


Lulu and Daisy said...

Well done! I look forward to more musings and rants or whatever. If we can't look at our lives and find the humor (dark or not--I know what you mean) we're not living!

Gifting Gumshoe said...

Good for you! We look forward to your posts! People need thicker skin sometimes!

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