I tried something new. I recently met Lillian, a woman who practices what is a very strange but incredible kind of healing. It is done through what she calls your own "body intelligence". Although you can verbally answer her questions, all her true answers come from her reading your body through touch. As bizarre as this sounds, when you speak to her and listen to what and how she works, it makes an amazing amount of sense. And the greatest part about it is that you are in control of your own healing process, regardless of what it is.
I went to her because of my sleep issues and lethargy and various and sundry other issues I have. A friend actually told me about her in a casual conversation, set up an appointment for me and I figured it was worth a shot. After numerous years of doctors visits with physicians and specialists, I was convinced that most of my problems were emotional, psychological and stress related. I was quite surprised when she told me that they were not.
I am happy to report, that although I am only a little way into the program, I think it may be working. We will see in a few more weeks at my follow-up, but I can tell you that I have slept through the night for 4 out of the last 6 nights. I know this doesn't sound like a huge feat, but I don't think I've slept through an entire night in the last 4 years. I can also tell you that I feel much better during the day. No, I am not at 100%, but baby steps are just as nice when you are starting at ground zero.
I mention this meeting with my new friend because I have found that people never cease to amaze me. We all talk about how society has gotten more accepting and most people live under the "live and let live" rules, but I tell you - this is not true. I have discovered that most everybody, including me I guess, has such a defined set of laws and rules and opinions, that there is very little room for anyone else's.
I think that human nature tends to make us afraid of what we don't know - and ego makes us unable to accept others beliefs or question what we do know. I realized that I have spent my whole life trying to fit in. Not in the sense of what I wear, say, places I go, etc. (well, maybe a little of that too) but in the sense of buying into whatever I am told. What religion I should be, what person I should vote for, what I should think about certain people, issues, religions, and almost anything and everything else that really matters. I also realized that there is so much more out there. There are so many interesting people with views, opinions, religions and such that most of us would usually label as foolish, absurd, crazy or strange. And I have discovered, that there is something to be said to really listen to those people and take to heart what they have to say and teach and to follow the advice and guidance of someone that truly makes sense to you. No matter how daft the people around you think you are.
There are so many generations of people that come from long lines of families who used holistic medicine from when there were no medical miracle drugs and surgeries. And we can view this as superstition, folk-lore, voo-doo, or whatever other crazy term we can think of. But in my opinion, if it works, it works. A friend and I actually had this conversation after I tried to explain what Lillian did with me. I was told that it was all in my head. My response? "Maybe so, but even if it is, if its working for me it can't be all that bad."
I try to respect other's opinions and views and choices and not make fun or trivialize them (I may not be so good at that all the time, but at least I try) and I guess what I am getting at here is that I just wish that others could try to respect mine too. Maybe while I'm at it, I could wish for the ideal world too. :)
By the way, If you ever read this, B - Thank You for Lillian - I OWE YOU!
1 comments:
WOW! That sounds wonderful. I'll have to look into that. Having medical problems myself and hitting dead end after dead end,I believe you have to start looking for different alternatives. I think womens health in general has been extremely overlooked and to easily passed off as "oh it's in your head".It stinks and needs change!! You'll have to keep posting about this. I'm curious to know how it turns out for you. I wish you all the luck!!
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